It's been a while🤗

Solo date🤍

Today I went to school in the afternoon. Man, leaving home at that time was tough, and it was scorching outside. It’s the first day of a new module, and after four months of queuing with my girl, sitting side by side, today we parted ways. I chose to go with the numbers—why complicate her life? Lol. At least now we’ll have some fresh things to gossip about: like my lecturer, a very good person, but funny, how he pronounces “thermometer” as samomita, but he's got a very cute smile, and how he told me I was in the right place after I introduced myself and shared what I do. Little things that make me smile, whether he meant it or was just hyping me up.

I found myself sitting there, knowing no one. My girl wasn’t there, and who’s going to buy me biscuits for break? Let’s see how it goes.

Mbo, it’s been a while. At some point, I forgot that I write. Life has been happening, and it’s been—and still is—quite a lot.

The last time I went on a solo date? I really don’t remember. But here I am, back to my ritual: a cozy little place I bring no one to, just me. I’ve had this spot since 2023, but maybe it’s time I discover another one.

I’m here, sipping my mocha, enjoying the sunset, breathing, reflecting, and projecting.

Life lately

Since May this year, a lot has been happening in my life—but in a very good way. I’ve been stacking experiences on top of each other, pushing my limits, and testing my capabilities. Trying new things, venturing into unknown territories—all for the sake of growth in every corner of life.

Spiritually

This has always been the center of my life, and it always will be. What is life without prayer? What is life without God in it? I’ve tasted life without Him, and this time around, we cannot argue on it.

I’ve been praying and reading the Bible. Some days are easier than others; some days the flesh feels heavier than the spirit. But I knew I had to fight. I couldn’t allow myself to fall completely asleep spiritually. God wouldn’t let me anyway—if there’s someone He protects and loves with all His heart, it’s me. I am not yet where I want to be, but I am better than I was yesterday. I see God’s hand in even the smallest details of my daily life. May He bless SGM for me—I truly am happiest with them around. The love and prayers I receive there are unmatched, nothing can compete with them.

Career

I am grateful for my job. I love it, no matter how demanding it can be. And God has been in it since day one.

Our office looks amazing now. We’ve moved to a new, cool, and stylish space. Everything is new—the desks, the chairs, everything. I’m appreciating these simple things that make my inner child happy. And they affect my mood at work in ways I didn’t imagine—they literally do something to my brain, workwise.

My team? I love the guys. They’re fun to work with, but also very unserious—in a good way. My poor ribs…!!, they’re constantly aching from laughter. And my lady colleague, who takes care of me, appreciates the woman in me, gives me style tips, checks my color combos and lipstick, and sneaks me snacks every now and then. Girlhood is such an amazing thing—I appreciate her a lot.

The best part? I’ve got spiritual colleagues among them, colleagues who pray for me and with me, pushing me to become spiritually mature. Now tell me, if I lack anything in there.

You know I’m a credit analyst, but for the past month, I’ve been assigned new responsibilities. I’m currently acting in a managerial position for a some months. Was it me? Never. But God. So I push, and push, trying to give it my absolute best.

And now that I am on this journey, I’m trying to know things. Thus,  I decided to go back to school and pursue a master’s degree to increase my knowledge and improve my skills. Honestly, I never dreamed of doing this one here on this continent. Those who know, know. I used to say I’d rather…… than do a master’s degree here. Hahaha!

But let me tell you something: the day you surrender your life to Jesus, the day you ask God to take the wheel, everything changes. Suddenly, you’re left standing, wondering what is happening with your own plans, but you don’t stop God because you surrendered. And because you know Jeremiah 29:11.

In August 2024, He said I would do this. And now here I am. I could have chosen not to obey, but what would that have added to my life? Nothing!

And now, belonging to this sector, I’m also taking a related course—another class to physically attend after work. Is it easy? Not at all. Is it worth it? Absolutely.

Personal growth

This is one area I’m particularly proud of. A few months ago, I decided to move out of my dad’s house. Why? Because I’m a grown-up. Old enough to take full responsibility for my life. Old enough to have my own space. This isn’t a common thing in our culture, but I strongly believe it’s essential for personal growth and development, for either girls or boys.

Life has been so beautiful since then. I went from commuting for an hour to work, to reaching the office in just 7–10 minutes. I have a cozy home—quiet, comfortable, with everything I need to feel at peace.

I’ve learned so many things, and I’m still learning. I know now that no one is going to cook for me, yet I have to eat home-cooked meals every day—from breakfast to dinner. And I love learning to cook new dishes. Slowly but surely, I’m becoming a chef (lol). I’ve learned to enjoy it, even though I once hated cooking. I am not there yet though, but I have to take care of this temple.

I’ve also learned that no one will pay my bills—rent, laundry, utilities. If I mess up financially, I’m cooked. This kind of growth pushes me to look beyond the horizon, beyond the near future. The areas that I am currently focusing on and reading more about are homemaking, time management, personal finance, and investment. Is the world even ready for the woman I’m becoming? Lol.

Last but not least here, I’m good, really good. And I’m grateful for having an understanding dad—That man is amazing guys.

Friendship, emotions, feelings, romance

I’ve never been this stable in these areas as I am today. God blessed me with friends who probably love me more than I love myself—hh! Because yooh, God knows how I love these girls. (I have very few male friends, two or three. I am not talking about those I hang out with, rather, those I allowed to really know me and be there for me). These friends remind me every day that I can sit back and be treated like a princess, that I can relax and be a receiver as much as a giver. They’d kill you if you dared mess with me. Nyine, bijya bindenga, the way I am loved—biri hejuru cyane. These were strangers a few years ago, but they became part of my life and never left no matter the circumstances. I love how God loves me through them.

Rero, as human as I am, I still have tough days, mood swings, and emotional moments. Sometimes I let people see the raw me; sometimes I “bleed” on the wrong ones. When this happens, I either run to God or to God—sometimes He directs me to my friends. But things have been stable. The Holy Spirit is at work.

Madam romantic, madam feelings for who, madam falling for who, madam relationship with who, madam byashyushye byashyushye… Lol, don’t you miss me guys? Hhh. I think I’ve had the most dramatic love life one can ever have. But God yakoze Umuganda rusange. Iraharura, ica inzira, izibura n’imiferege, nuko isubiza ubwenge bw’umwana w’umuntu ku gihe.

But what happens to people sometimes, huh? Hari igihe ugira ngo itara ry’ubuzima bwawe bararizimije, ubundi ukagenda ukabakaba, wagira ibyago ugasitara on something hafi kuguca amano, because… lol, karahanyuze. Don’t expect anything here, at least not my love life (I am disappointing you today). However, if you see me and wonder what is happening in this field of my life, kneel or bow down and praise God, kubw’imirimo y’amaboko yayo.

“C’est Dieu seul Qui donne sense à nos vies!”

In a nutshell, that has been me for the past four months. I’ve stabilized a couple of things that now I am slowly coming back to life. The only thing that still has to wait until the weight is off my shoulders is social life, because, I either find time to rest in the few free hours that I have, or I collapse socializing. I am not yet there on this, unless I really really have to be somewhere.  Otherwise, it’s home, work and school, from Monday to Sunday. If you invite me and I don’t show up, bear with me, because I cannot die for you, unfortunately. (ntubyegereze umutima, lol).

I pray I have more time for this. I missed it so badly.

I love it here🤎